Hello! it has been a while since my last post...(when I say a while probably almost 3 months). Sorry for my lack of communication it has been a very mixed and emotional few as well.
Firstly, I graduated. YAY! my greatest achievement I feel. One of my proudest moments I have because it cements a lot that has happened over the last 3 years and has made all of the pain and hours of panic worth it. I was also very proud that my family could watch it all online and be so amazing. Naomi Ruth Gibbs BTh. :) YAY!
And Secondly...and probably the most important change in my life:
My Auntie Susan passed away very suddenly from a major stroke on the 28th December 2012. Whilst it only took less than a minute for her to be taken from us I cannot help but feel God was very much involved and loving in the whole situation. Whilst I won't go into details of all the surrounding issues and family things, there were many things about that morning and days before which could not have been mere coincidence.
Lets just say it has been such a mixed time for the whole family.
Auntie Susan was a vibrant member of Ampthill Baptist Church and loved devoting her time there. In the darkest moments since this time stopping event I have felt God gently say "I've got her". That is all I know. No theology degree, or anything in life can prepare for such events but I just know Jesus cared and loved her.
As a family we have come together more than ever. And I am just inspired by my grandmother who through it all has been a tower of strength. After losing her mother, sister, husband and now daughter in the most horrific ways she is still fully devoted to God and to life. At 84 and with one leg she is pushing onwards, not looking back and trusting Jesus in this plan.
I will never understand the workings of God, but what I do know is that if my Grandmother can keep going then so can I. And I have learnt to keep pushing through the pain.
Never stop. Keep going for God, because as Swedish House Mafia sing:
Don't worry you child, see Heavens got a plan for you.
Love love love.